excellent point you make sir. Indeed I have spent the majority of my limited time here in my old hood preaching to the kids about changing thier lives, and how much this experience has had an effect on me. I also had a chance to speak with my ex last night. Wasn't very heartening, but I needed closure and to move on indeed. I'm free now, even though it hurts to do so. damnit.. Oh well. It sucks to speak undying love and have absolutely nothing returned. I suppose that is what happens alot here on planet earth. Perhaps next time I will finally get who I am looking for.